I am in awe of the power of fear, angst, phobia. This power has the ability to stop otherwise talented, disciplined, determined people… very Harry Potter-ish in how insidious and invisible the fear can be.
It took maybe an hour (and that was with a lot of setbacks from a non-compliant computer) to do what i had procrastinated in doing, resisted with the hopeless passivity of a giant, hairy mule stuck in six feet of spring mud, for many months. And now, here i am, logging on, stumbling along since it took me ten minutes to locate “New Post” in the gray line at the top of the page… and following, albeit with trepidation, my hand-written directions as to how to actually do a new post.
This is a post, people, and this very old girl can, if led by the hand and nurtured with soft encouraging words, learn a new trick or two. What makes this all ridiculous is that this same old girl has done everything and more described in her little bio description on the home page. I can fly to foreign lands, set off on an autobahn to find towns not on maps, and do just about anything…. out there. But with technology, there is a brain-freeze. Like a math learning disability, or dyslexia, we just don’t get what other people can see so clearly. It’s all muddled up. It’s the same reason my husband sighs, deeply, when i pathetically request that he get the machines (he would call them the TV, DVD, On-Demand, etc.) all lined up for that program he recorded (also a great mystery) last night before he abandon me and leave for work. Because if he does not, I never will get it up.
“One word at a time” is my mantra. And “This too shall pass.”